Burning Heart!!

Can you ever love someone enough to let them go?? Can you ever leave the person your know aint the one for you, but it burns inside when she ain't there...Do you think you should hold on to her or let her go coz she is with someone else...What if you were never going to get her?? These are the questions a guy has to ideally answer once, but looking at the current trend of things "Love" has totally lost its meaning. the above questions have lost their sanctity, guys in 10th grade need a girlfriend for the heck of it, guys in grad school need a girl to be cool, guys in 20s need a girl to not feel left out, then there is the mother of all jokes 'the marriage', which is now a lie of sorts, its a way of saying "ok, i will close myself shut inside me, i will act all my life to be someone i am not". People these days don't connect, their girlfriends don't understand them, their definition of love is a disaster.
Love is more about the understanding and trust than it is about the gifts and dates, being on the phone with "your girl" for 4 hrs a day doesn't mean you love her, but meeting her after 4 months and not being required to open your mouth to tell her, to talk to her does. A friend once asked me "Do you think 2 ppl can understand each other so much as to not use words to talk", i said that is exactly what i believed love was. The purest level and form of understanding and trust. Ppl are lucky enough if they find one such person, with whom they can be themselves, whom they trust and understand, for whom the heart BURNS. There are always ppl in life with whom you know u wouldn't make a great pair mentally, who would only like and understand the outer you, but when you tell your mind that she aint the one, your heart burns, it aint a nice feeling....
Be it the high school crush, the really understanding friend or anyone else if you like her "let her go" if it was real she will come back...

But the thought that i would have to seal off the true me forever coz i dint find THE ONE is a very frightening though...

Who am I?

Who am I?
I am not the same.....Who was I then.....I don't know.....I am changing....The cocoon is cracking....I have changed....I don't want to change....Leave me alone....I need the One, to add meaning to my life...But the cocoon is cracking....and I have no wings to be free....Truly Free!!!
Keep giving them what they want....You have to exist
Does it matter?
No!! But don't crack....You are strong....I am alone....



This is something that came from within, If u can understand that, You have understood me.........

MYTH CALLED LIFE

Summer sucks

as i got to know first hand, i was coming back home(yeah thats the only good thing), and it was very very hot in the train....after a movie till 2am i managed to get sleep and woke up at 5am again, well i dint feel like sleeping and that was when i went into psycho mode....well all the ingredients where there, everyone sleeping, still dark and i was alone with nothing to do...kinda like now...as i sat near the window and started staring out and thinking about everything

i had a thought in my head, "does it really matter" my life that is, does it ever actually matter....i saw a few trucks on the road...now if i were to see life from one of the driver's eyes it would be interesting, he would have had a totally diff set of things to worry about, like food,water for this family...driving

now the train crossed a few houses...if i were to put myself in their shoes, i would be a guy of no concern....just someone, some random guy...after that i had crossed a few hundred houses.... these were ppl who had diff lives, parallel lifes...none of which actually matters to anyone else....and to think about it, I was just a guy from one of the windows in one of the many trains they saw...

such diff lifes such diff ppl, thus my question arises does it really matter...
life is definitely over rated....hence the myth continues......

Alone...in the crowded world

No one is alone, no one can ever be alone unless he misses himself...u always got u with u...well no this ain't some site which preaches self morale and crap, its rather the other way round, it has accounts of a guy (thats me) and his take on life and things he understands....well anyways enough of the good interesting type of blogging...this topic i am writing is wat i feel most of the times...well almost always...unless i am home, or in conversation with my good friends...


Well actually everyone is alone, well few realise it, most don't, for their own well being....i guess or just coz they feel happier that way...well the fact remains...everyone puts on stuff to be someone they r not, rather to show everyone wat they want everyone to see them as, well why do they try so hard, why is it that i have to put on a show to be called "normal"? why is it that ppl try so damn hard to show themselves as somebody they r not to ppl they really care nothing about? why cant i be myself and still be happy.....well this might be utter bullshit to most ppl, but for few its wat they have been trying to understand for years, or have understood over years....well either way the fact remains

everyone is "ALONE IN THE CROWDED WORLD"

I Am Selfish

People say "don't be selfish"
People say "always help others"

But i don't give a fuck about what ppl say...all i care is what "I" say...i mean ppl will say anything when they have idiots who listen...who r "ppl"...its us, u, me...
why is it that it is always "Do u think everyone will like it?" "Do u think i look good?" or "But he said it was good to be that way" "but he told me not to do that"...everyone today do stuff coz they want others to think they r something...everyone is selfless...no one is selfish...no one even cares if it is good or bad...they don't make an effort to know if its good or bad...they do it coz "they said so"...all ppl want is to have fame, to be liked, to be admired, to be thought as someone...all ppl want is "to be seen as" but noone really cares about "being" that person....

This is nothing but selflessness...u r removing the self from the man...from his identity, the few who do manage to maintain it r said to be stupid, bad, outcasts...

well the title suggests that i have not been selfless...well its not totally true...i have done stuff ppl would have never imagined...but we learn from those mistakes, atleast thats wat "everyone says"... :)


PS:This has been inspired from "The Fountainhead", but its like this...these r like Newton's Laws...these r always true...no matter who finds it out they r still called "newton's laws", its just who said it first...everyone else has just copied...